Ramadhan kareem

This is almost a week of ramadhan....Ramadan this time I have something different since he left me.
I thought that I feel so different even isn't easy to cover all the pain
Anyway......time changed and life must be changed too rite?
As a time goes so fast, I have to move on and keep on spirit to continue this wonderful life
Ramadhan kareem is a blessed month which is all moeslim have to fasting to complete they're responsible to Allah / God.
On this month of fasting always remind me something that maybe I won't forget for my entire life
Dear God....please give me a strength to face all the things in a future
My parents always blame me with the bad story that I've done before, how I could survive with the situation like this???

 

My B'day "24"

On that day I was so exciting…the time showed to me that I’m getting more mature (⌣́_⌣̀) . But I’ve to realized everything is changed now. The first one who said birthday to me is my new friend “sony”which is from jogja, he is a doctor and I just know him the day before on my birthday. He send me a picture with the wishes.

The second one is my bff “deniss”,the third one is my bff also “iyass”,the next day handa & yepni my bff since I studied in a high school And a lot of greeting from all my friends like : alex & also my aunty nurina then others start at night until the next day. 

This time I feel so different bcoz there is only 1 person who called me at 00am, and I’♍ not expecting that my old ex bf to called me. A year ago I still accepted a phone call from special one,but this year only my other ex_bf who stays in Palu was called me at 00am on 31may. Hisname is Udhi.
Then the next day on 31may, My special 1 said happy b’day to me with no special wishes n it was extremely different. Well…time is running so fast,he might be already doesn't care about me or he might be already has a new gf. Actually,I dun’t need he’s caring about me. I just need he become like the first time I knew him,no need to pretend like there is nuthin between us about 2years & 5 month ago. 

But after all those day I still have a blast on my b’day,bcoz I celebrated my b’day with my students in kindergarten. I really happy on that day,I saw my students also happy and exciting. I prefer celebrated with my students first bcoz only them that always make me happy and give me a stronger life. I really love them even thought I just know them about 2 months ago. After that, I went back to my house and there is a little surprised from my spesial friend “Arie”,he gave me a Chocolate cake from harvest. He delivered from his office and he sent it to my house.

I was so surprised that he really do this, bcoz I never have a surprised like that before. My mother was asking me about the cake, and she also surprised. She was asking me,who is he and what your relation about him?. I said that there is nuthin between me and him, but my mom didn’t believe me. She just wondering how come he made a surprise like that without any exception?. On the night I was eating a piece of the cake with my lil bro, the taste is really good. I never eat the greatest chocolate cake like that before. After all those greetings than I also celebrated with my besties in belezza Permata hijau.

The Day You Went Away

It's been a months since you left me on that doors way

I knew it's time for me to let it go of you and all the memories from our story

I knew it's time for me to widen my  wings to reach all of my dreams

I knew that you will find another one girl to fill your daily activities

I knew it will so easy for you to forget everything that happened between us

I knew you will be very happy since you left me, even thought You won't convince anything about it with me

I trust on my faith that all the things happened between us was written in the sky

Now I will not expecting too much in you because God was give me a sign that you are not worth for me

Maybe one day if I ever meet you again it will not be the same

Dear God

This is so strange

I never thought would fall in love with someone who I just met 2 years 5 months ago.This feeling does not fade slightest knick although he has tried to make me sick and he even want make me to be hate him. I never know why this could happen to me? Is it god has really want this feeling still exists or whether it just me who did not want to eliminate this feeling? 

Until this moment even though he's not mine anymore, this love will never disappear. Even if later we have found our soulmate. This is strange indeed that it whereas before I felt I also have had a relationship for more than 3 years,but the fact is not the same as this situation. I can not even afford to hate, insult, or trying to forget him.

if only you know that I'll always be there beside you even though you have often made ​​me cry because I felt the love that is in my heart. 

if only you know that in every prayer I always have your name, and 

I want always to make you happy even though you are no longer mine.

My Lord..... I will always grateful to you and I always begged you to keep giving me instructions for all the questions in my heart. Because You are the owner of the body and soul.